May 2012
It’s so crazy how people can make you feel like shit. it’s something I just don’t understand, and will probably never understand. But it is one of those moments where you take a step back and you realize the kind of company that really makes you happy, and the kind that just tears at you.
You try so hard, but they are incredibly unrelenting. Personalities just don’t meet on the same platform. No matter what you do, not matter what you say, they already have this prefabricated image of who you are and stick to it. Judging everything you do off that one ridiculous idea of who theythinkyou are. I am so tired of this detestable monotony. I need to stop trying to be the one that can hang out with everyone. I need to put my feet on solid ground and just stick to those who are passive and not nit picky.
Everything they say is just a stab at you and it grinds, grinds, grinds away until you just can’t take it anymore. You’d like to sit there and make excuses for their behavior, try to see it from their standpoint, but then you realize their assumption of who you are is so so so incredibly wrong and that there is no way of convincing them otherwise.
I don’t even know how to rant anymore. This is just whatever the fuck came out of my brain.
Fin.
